Well, i think this year isn't the hardest, but it's most likely heartbeating.

Feels like when i'm at the highest latitude on a roller coaster, then the gravity suddenly swallowing me, endless.
January was just the rest of 2019 struggle. Such a thesis revision and etc.

February, was a celebration. And also, a new beginning.
Glorious moment covered with a clueless story. When i got my first (but second actually) interview, with one of the most agritech in jkt.

I thought that i was well prepared. But..
2 weeks later, i got rejected. But that's the sweetest one. They kindly having me during the interview session.
March, i got my third interview. But it was unusual. No enthusiast, no spirit. Just followed by a big bad news about, the pandemic..
April was my hibernate mode. Just killing my time with a new lessons around ui design and web programming, during Ramadhan.

But still, not completed.
May, a new path of my hobby in fish. With my betta and catfish yeay!
June was my "in search of incredible". In the situation of covid-19 case increasing. Then, there is a moment of hopeless came up.
July!

Another call up. But it's only an unpaid internship. But i was still grateful. At least, i got free lunch for around mext 3 months wkwkwkw
August, September, and October was just an internship trilogy.

But actually, i got an offered to continue, this anticlimax routinity. I rejected it.
Sounds arrogant. But rice became a porridge. It was my choice. To choose my idealism on my betta fish hobby.

I started to learn about breeding. Then, i did it!
November, then December. It's my breeding story. But it's too long to describe.

But December, ahh...
Now it's just like my inhale and exhale session. Hopeless, i think. Physically drop.

But don't worry! It's a few days ago. Now i'm fine, but not with my mentality.
2021? Resolution?

Well, if a 48 megapixels camera resolution still not affordable for me, then why i should create another resolution?

Just do it. Things that other people call it "bullshit".

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survive or I’d kill someone on the way down.

Christine spoke about honoring your pastors even when they weren’t great, she spoke of us expecting too much of pastors and how wrong that was. She said God would use our testimony if we submitted to our pastors.

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She said “honor your pastors, God will honor you.” She said more about having disagreed with her pastors but she submitted and God honored her and now she’s blessed. How if they are faithfully serving God, we need to support them and not forfeit what God has for us.

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I felt my heart drop into my stomach. I got up and went to the bathroom because I couldn’t breath and I felt like I was going to faint if I didn’t scream. I now know I was having a panic attack. I sat on the toilet w/my head between my legs, breathed and wept..
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