Well, i think this year isn't the hardest, but it's most likely heartbeating.

Feels like when i'm at the highest latitude on a roller coaster, then the gravity suddenly swallowing me, endless.
January was just the rest of 2019 struggle. Such a thesis revision and etc.

February, was a celebration. And also, a new beginning.
Glorious moment covered with a clueless story. When i got my first (but second actually) interview, with one of the most agritech in jkt.

I thought that i was well prepared. But..
2 weeks later, i got rejected. But that's the sweetest one. They kindly having me during the interview session.
March, i got my third interview. But it was unusual. No enthusiast, no spirit. Just followed by a big bad news about, the pandemic..
April was my hibernate mode. Just killing my time with a new lessons around ui design and web programming, during Ramadhan.

But still, not completed.
May, a new path of my hobby in fish. With my betta and catfish yeay!
June was my "in search of incredible". In the situation of covid-19 case increasing. Then, there is a moment of hopeless came up.
July!

Another call up. But it's only an unpaid internship. But i was still grateful. At least, i got free lunch for around mext 3 months wkwkwkw
August, September, and October was just an internship trilogy.

But actually, i got an offered to continue, this anticlimax routinity. I rejected it.
Sounds arrogant. But rice became a porridge. It was my choice. To choose my idealism on my betta fish hobby.

I started to learn about breeding. Then, i did it!
November, then December. It's my breeding story. But it's too long to describe.

But December, ahh...
Now it's just like my inhale and exhale session. Hopeless, i think. Physically drop.

But don't worry! It's a few days ago. Now i'm fine, but not with my mentality.
2021? Resolution?

Well, if a 48 megapixels camera resolution still not affordable for me, then why i should create another resolution?

Just do it. Things that other people call it "bullshit".

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Хајде да направимо мали осврт на случај Мика Алексић .

Алексић је жртва енглеске освете преко Оливере Иванчић .
Мика је одбио да снима филм о блаћењу Срба и мењању историје Срба , иза целокупног пројекта стоји дипломатски кор Британаца у Београду и Оливера Иванчић


Оливера Илинчић је иначе мајка једне од његових ученица .
Која је претила да ће се осветити .

Мика се налази у притвору због наводних оптужби глумице Милене Радуловић да ју је наводно силовао човек од 70 година , са три бајпаса и извађеном простатом пре пет година

Иста персона је и обезбедила финансије за филм преко Беча а филм је требао да се бави животом Десанке Максимовић .
А сетите се и ко је иницирао да се Десанка Максимовић избаци из уџбеника и школства у Србији .

И тако уместо романсиране верзије Десанке Максимовић утицај Британаца

У Србији стави на пиједестал и да се Британци у Србији позитивно афирмишу како би се на тај начин усмерила будућност али и мењао ток историје .
Зато Мика са гнушањем и поносно одбија да снима такав филм тада и почиње хајка и претње која потиче из британских дипломатских кругова

Најгоре од свега што је то Мика Алексић изговорио у присуству високих дипломатских представника , а одговор је био да се све неће на томе завршити и да ће га то скупо коштати .
Нашта им је Мика рекао да је он свој живот проживео и да могу да му раде шта хоће и силно их извређао
Great article from @AsheSchow. I lived thru the 'Satanic Panic' of the 1980's/early 1990's asking myself "Has eveyrbody lost their GODDAMN MINDS?!"


The 3 big things that made the 1980's/early 1990's surreal for me.

1) Satanic Panic - satanism in the day cares ahhhh!

2) "Repressed memory" syndrome

3) Facilitated Communication [FC]

All 3 led to massive abuse.

"Therapists" -and I use the term to describe these quacks loosely - would hypnotize people & convince they they were 'reliving' past memories of Mom & Dad killing babies in Satanic rituals in the basement while they were growing up.

Other 'therapists' would badger kids until they invented stories about watching alligators eat babies dropped into a lake from a hot air balloon. Kids would deny anything happened for hours until the therapist 'broke through' and 'found' the 'truth'.

FC was a movement that started with the claim severely handicapped individuals were able to 'type' legible sentences & communicate if a 'helper' guided their hands over a keyboard.