I read things, you see?
I read a lot of things. I know how rapidly everything can change. When I see you try to declare "they're just not regularly around women and don't know them" I mock you and will continue to do so. Because you have no idea what's happened.

Kant never really got around to being near women.

Did he hate them?
Yet there are contradictions and I've noticed that where they are seemingly present, rumination is a normal behavior.
That'll drive you insane. I would know.

While I've learned to see it and let go of nearly all of it after the fact I don't think most people understand that almost none of it is real.
Rumination is like a miniature psychosis that normal people can suffer and induce. That's what it's like.
Well, that's what it's like if there was no need for the repetition as much as conditions. Normally it's almost instantaneous. But that's pretty close and something I think most people could understand.
You ever ruminated over something? Alone. For a long time. More and more rapidly reliving the situation as it compounds until the emotional reaction it gets from you was as if it were the greatest destruction and insult ever laid on you.
Maybe later on once it's all settled and you're back to normal, you look at what you felt and it just seems fucking insane afterwards. It made no sense,
you were acting waaaaaaaaaay out of proportion for what it was and it turns out, the perceived thing in something that upset you so much, never actually happened, you just perceived it being that negative way.
Like when you hear someone say something just out of earshot and imagine it hostile and about you.
If schizophrenia is the warping of the thing, psychosis is the warping of the context and it's seemingly very important that that's actually something even normally healthy people can and often do.
You know, I read once that Iranian have a "holiday" where they basically intensely remember history and slights to the country over and over again all day. Basically engaging in a holiday of rumination.
Seemed strange but useful.

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1) 2000 words are devoted to the OPCW controversy regarding the alleged chemical weapon attack in #Douma, Syria in 2018 but critical material is omitted from the book. Reading it, one would never know the following:

2) That the controversy started when the original interim report, drafted and agreed by Douma inspection team members, was secretly modified by an unknown OPCW person who had manipulated the findings to suggest an attack had occurred. https://t.co/QtAAyH9WyX… @RobertF40396660


3) This act of attempted deception was only derailed because an inspector discovered the secret changes. The manipulations were reported by @ClarkeMicah
and can be readily observed in documents now available https://t.co/2BUNlD8ZUv….

4) @bellingcat's book also makes no mention of the @couragefoundation panel, attended by the @opcw's first Director General, Jose Bustani, at which an OPCW official detailed key procedural irregularities and scientific flaws with the Final Douma Report:
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Translucent agate bowl with ornamental grooves and coffee-and-cream marbling. Found near Qift in southern Egypt. 300 - 1,000 BC. 📷 Getty Museum https://t.co/W1HfQZIG2V


Technicolor dreambowl, found in a grave near Zadar on Croatia's Dalmatian Coast. Made by melding and winding thin bars of glass, each adulterated with different minerals to get different colors. 1st century AD. 📷 Zadar Museum of Ancient Glass
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100,000-year-old abalone shells used to mix red ocher, marrow, charcoal, and water into a colorful paste. Possibly the oldest artist's palettes ever discovered. Blombos Cave, South Africa. 📷https://t.co/0fMeYlOsXG


Reed basket bowl with shell and feather ornaments. Possibly from the Southern Pomo or Lake Miwok cultures. Found in Santa Barbara, CA, circa 1770. 📷 British Museum https://t.co/F4Ix0mXAu6


Wooden bowl with concentric circles and rounded rim, most likely made of umbrella thorn acacia (Vachellia/Acacia tortilis). Qumran. 1st Century BCE. 📷 https://t.co/XZCw67Ho03

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