There are moments now and then when, if I imagine hard enough, it’s like it was before.

I don’t feel the ear loops from the mask.

I don’t notice the red signs on the floor, saying “6 ft apart!”

I don’t feel... the heaviness that tinges every single hour.

There are moments. 1/

I’m standing in line at the post office. It’s a beautiful day and sunlight streams in through the windows.

Miraculously it’s relatively deserted.

A bored little boy looks through the stamps for sale with his mother.

A man stands behind me, elderly, leaning on a cane. 2/
He’s tall, lean, and wears a “GO ARMY” sweatshirt paired with sweatpants, and those brown sandals that seem ubiquitous in South Texas.

I nod hello.

He nods in return, “Hi, doc.”

For a moment, I feel that queasy discomfort of being unable to remember.

Do I know him? 3/
I know patients expect me to recognize them, and I often remember, but there’re just too many.

Then I realize, he’s not a patient.

I forgot to unclip the hospital ID tag on my shirt pocket.

He grins, “What kind of doc are ya?”

I unclip the ID tag and smile, “Kidneys.” 4/
“My kidneys are just about the only damn part of me that works!”

He laughs. A choppy sound, dry.

I nod politely, saying nothing.

He continues with that easy familiarity that comes from being sociable, and lonely.

“I busted my knees jumpin’ outta planes for the army.” 5/
I nod again, “Thanks for your service.”

He grins, “You can thank me by telling me where I can get one of those COVID shots.”

I tell him the local resources.

He nods, “I’m on a waiting list. Can you believe there’s morons who don’t wanna get em? After all this crap?” 6/
“There’s a lot of misinformation and mistrust out there.” I try to sound level-headed.

“Bullshit, they’re idiots. People dyin’ left and right. I got every vaccine there was in the army. Damn straight I’m gettin’ this one.”

He stands a little taller.

I grin, “Good luck.” 7/
Later that day I’m home.

Still thinking about the man in the Post Office, and his clarity.

I hope he gets the vaccine.

There’s been a spike in patient deaths in the hospital recently.

Sometimes I see them in my mind’s eye.

Those who never had a chance to take the vaccine. 8/
They’re silent, because I usually see them after they’ve been intubated, so I never hear their voices.

Sometimes they sit across from me on the couch and stare wistfully at the news on TV.

A country tearing itself apart, in the shadow of a toll too vast to comprehend. 9/
Sometimes they look at me, and I see them with terrible clarity.

I see the scars on their neck where the central lines were. The tape marks from the ET tube in their throat. The marks on their wrists from arterial lines.

Some are swollen with edema, or subcutaneous air. 10/
I know what they want.

A chance to stay with their family. To stay with their beloveds.

One more day. One more moment.

One last walk in the park with their dog.

What would they have given for a chance at this vaccine?

I close my eyes and I see them clearly.

Ghosts. 11/
I listen to their labored breaths. I bear witness. I mourn their passing. I remember them.

And then I do my best to let them go.

I made oatmeal the other day. For the first time in months. Don’t know why I wanted it. I just did.

I added maple syrup.

It felt normal. 12/
There are moments now and then when, if I imagine hard enough, it’s like it was before.

I don’t feel the ear loops from the mask.

I don’t notice the red signs on the floor, saying “6 ft apart!”

I don’t feel... the heaviness that tinges every single hour.

There are moments.

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@snip96581187 @Daoyu15 @lab_leak @walkaboutrick @ydeigin @Ayjchan @franciscodeasis @TheSeeker268 @angie_rasmussen Clearly, because as I have been saying for 8 months now, DTRA and DARPA have been using Ecohealth and UC Davis to collect novel pathogens for gain of function work back in the USA. I have documented this in many threads which I will post here just to annoy everyone.

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Excited we finally have a draft of this paper, which attempts to provide a 'unifying theory' of the long economic divergence between the Middle East & Western Europe

As we see it, there are 3 recent theories that hit on important aspects of the divergence...

1/


One set of theories focus on the legitimating power of Islam (Rubin, @prof_ahmetkuru, Platteau). This gave religious clerics greater power, which pulled political resources away form those encouraging economic development

But these theories leave some questions unanswered...
2/

Religious legitimacy is only effective if people
care what religious authorities dictate. Given the economic consequences, why do people remain religious, and thereby render religious legitimacy effective? Is religiosity a cause or a consequence of institutional arrangements?

3/

Another set of theories focus on the religious proscriptions of Islam, particular those associated with Islamic law (@timurkuran). These laws were appropriate for the setting they formed but had unforeseeable consequences and failed to change as economic circumstances changed

4/

There are unaddressed questions here, too

Muslim rulers must have understood that Islamic law carried proscriptions that hampered economic development. Why, then, did they continue to use Islamic institutions (like courts) that promoted inefficiencies?

5/
This response to my tweet is a common objection to targeted advertising.

@KevinCoates correct me if I'm wrong, but basic point seems to be that banning targeted ads will lower platform profits, but will mostly be beneficial for consumers.

Some counterpoints 👇


1) This assumes that consumers prefer contextual ads to targeted ones.

This does not seem self-evident to me


Research also finds that firms choose between ad. targeting vs. obtrusiveness 👇

If true, the right question is not whether consumers prefer contextual ads to targeted ones. But whether they prefer *more* contextual ads vs *fewer* targeted

2) True, many inframarginal platforms might simply shift to contextual ads.

But some might already be almost indifferent between direct & indirect monetization.

Hard to imagine that *none* of them will respond to reduced ad revenue with actual fees.

3) Policy debate seems to be moving from:

"Consumers are insufficiently informed to decide how they share their data."

To

"No one in their right mind would agree to highly targeted ads (e.g., those that mix data from multiple sources)."

IMO the latter statement is incorrect.

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