19th of December, 2020

Hi all,
As you've probably noticed, I have been very hard to reach for a while now. I haven't answered my messages or emails, haven't updated my content... Nothing.
I'll try to clear up some things as well as I can in this thread.
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No single thing has been the 'straw that broke the camel's back'. There have simply been too many obstacles, challenges and shitty things happening for a longer time, on pretty much every dimension of my life.
At some point, things just fall apart.
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It's no secret that I struggle with my mental health, and have done so for years. What's new is the fact that I'm probably neurodivergent and on the autism spectrum. This would explain many a thing, but can only be further investigated once my OCD chills the fuck out.
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Anyhow, got a little sidetracked here...
What I'm saying is, I have so much shit going on in my life, so much uncertainty, that pretty much all of my energy and resources go in to just taking care of my own basic needs.
Eating, sleeping, personal hygiene...
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Right now I'm at a place mentally, where just getting out of bed, eating something and changing out of my pyjamas takes the majority of my energy.
I'm so ridiculously low on spoons. Way lower on them than I thought. And still I have to keep spending them on my own expense.
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