Traditions vary, but you'll be faced with about 2 ounches of a brown fluid.

A typical batch tastes like you'd imagine motor oil would.

If you're lucky, it will taste like espresso that's been left out overnight.

You take a drink, wait.

The longest 30 minutes of your life....

If it's your first time, you've read blogs and listened to some podcasts. But you're about to learn that you're not prepared.

If you'd gone under before, you may be more on edge than the newcomers.

You know *something* is about to hit, and don't know what.

You sit and wait...

"The fear of the thing is always greater than the thing itself," is true 99% of the time.

You dread asking for something, because you fear rejection. But the rejection is never that bad.

As you're sitting, waiting, wondering, you brace for the thing you fear.

Before experiencing ayahuasca, first-time users obsess over whether they will throw or take a crap.

Going in, that's what you're afraid of. "Will I shit my pants?"

You have NO IDEA how trivial such banal concerns are about to seem...

When you're hunched over a bucket, yes it hurts. Puking like the worst food poisoning you've have.

And you're so grateful.

Because you're back in your body.

You're alive.

You may have felt like you'd never return.