So I finally read through this (a bit hard to read Roman Urdu especially if winds of chaos are running wild in your mind , and tears are forming)... and well, hot tears drop. Some yesrs ago someone took me close to some caged lions in Bahria Town and I refused to even look.

It's been 8 years that I have been in the throes of what can be called psychosis, which started suddenly shortly after a much-awaited trip to #Konya maqaam-e-Rumi. All the pain & fears I'd been holding within that primarily centered on the loss of Nature & innocence, boiled over.
As it hit in a shockwave, I REFUSED to look at such things as caged animals, fallen trees, and horrible cement buildings. Refused to come out of my house and finally had to be transported to mountains where I still live. But seeing "development" encroach here too, I have finally
taken the wound on the heart and given myself the courage to live horribly in a world that is becoming a veritable hell. It's been now a week that I am waking up telling myself: "I will possibly die, and that's OK. Bear witness."
I am under terroristic assault by aggressive madmen and nadwomen of this broken civilization who are practically after my life for having sought peace... but also, for meeting tragedy on my way. (I went to live in mountains, was assaulted there, his friends now give me threats.)
The beat of their terror assault is: "Who is this woman who is rejecting everything? Why can't she live *normally*?" (A Lahore-based socialista, @MahrukhBeg, is supplying personal stolen info to male assaulters in the hopes of doing me damage.)
They have figured out that there is something that I'm in mortal fear of, they are using this fear to abuse me on behalf of the criminal. Yup, @MahrukhBeg is supporting the rapist via French terrorist @BernardGrua.

And they are acting as if I am in fear of some past crime. LOL.
Yup I am afraid and I am in hiding. But I am afraid, very rightly, of a total collapse of Nature and working civilization. (I want our current civilization to be replacdd by a more naturalist one. Arrest me for it!?) Now I see this Lament of the Lion and my heart is ripped. Again
It's not easy being a human in this world.

(TLDR: Eco-depression drove me to mountain regions in North Pakistan where I ended up getting molested by an arch-rapist. His friends/allies now abuse me and try to figure out my "weakness" in their attempt to paint me as a baddie. 1/
2/ WHEN they go on a search of some dark material to paint me black with, they find stuff that confounds them and addles their self-centered mind. In their attempt to paint me as a bad girl (@mahrukhbeg) or as a Taliban (@bernardgrua), all they find is a person in dark eco-grief.
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